The loneliness was scratching my wounds each and every day. I was still alone. It had been 5840+ days from when I had landed on Earth. It was my birthday, I guess the sixteenth one. But unlike others, I wasn't excited about it at all, simply because I had no one to call to my place. Friend was just a dream in my life. I might seem to be desperate for friends. Just keep yourself out from the reach of any friend for just two days; how would you feel?
The pain I was suffering from felt too low. Some days even I used to think; "Am I over-reacting?" Maybe, or maybe not. Who knows? So, where was I? Yeah, I was on my birthday and some things like this. I guess celebrating a year less from life isn't a reason to party! Eventually, you are losing out an entire year of your life. This was my excuse for not partying at my birthdays. I was rather dragged to temples. I never believed on god, not because I was a skeptic, it was just my anger towards life that I used to blame god for evey trouble in my life.
The pain I was suffering from felt too low. Some days even I used to think; "Am I over-reacting?" Maybe, or maybe not. Who knows? So, where was I? Yeah, I was on my birthday and some things like this. I guess celebrating a year less from life isn't a reason to party! Eventually, you are losing out an entire year of your life. This was my excuse for not partying at my birthdays. I was rather dragged to temples. I never believed on god, not because I was a skeptic, it was just my anger towards life that I used to blame god for evey trouble in my life.
"I wasn't alone," I used to tell myself. "With me is my family." That useless speeches to myself was of no use now. I was big enough to fool myself anymore. A cousin of mine was my only friend. Not that he was always with me, but was always there for me. My chats just included some of his talks. However, my chats were soon going to be filled with plenty of stuff after the girl I was about the meet!
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