Life continues.

My life moved on and continued. I was back into my boring schedule but the girl's thoughts were still in my mind with the hope that I would meet her once again in my life. That might sound really awkward. Waiting for a girl you don't even know, was no less than a reason to a burst of laughter for anyone who heard my story.

And then one day, I was stunned. I couldn't believe my eyes as she was right in front of me. I was in the market place when I saw her buying something and that was the time when my heart fluttered in the colors of love. The feeling was as if I was the king of the world and I had got everything what I demanded.

I was curious to talk to her and as I headed towards her, I saw some man with her. Maybe he was her father or some uncle, and of course I had to stop my feet right there itself. Now I had no other option except to keep calm and watch her from a distance.

Who was she?

As I was in my thoughts, I didn't realize that she was gone! When I realized, it was too late to find her. The city is too big and finding her out there would be like finding a needle in the grass, which is totally impossible! So, I convinced myself, "Let it be buddy, let it be." Though I was trying to convince myself, it wasn't easy to forget her.

All that day long, I was lost in her thoughts. I had re-winded my memory to live that moment thousand times. Her face had stuck in my mind, in my heart and in my soul. She had conquered my entire state of mind. Again the question arose,"Who was she?" but I had no such answers to those questions, as I was completely clueless.

All I would do was the same again, joining my boring schedule for, maybe, my rest of the life, or, maybe my thoughts were wrong. Maybe I could meet her once again in my remaining years of life. That day I realized that life isn't that simple and boring as much as I thought it to be. The day I still remember, it was 29th day of March of the year 2008 and it had now been two months from that. Still, her essence was within my soul, her warmth kept my heart beating and her beauty kept my mind working. The question was still existing. Still, I was struggling to answer them.

That Day!

The days passed, one after the other, calendar used to show me that every single day, and I would say it to myself, " Thank God, another day of my boring life is over!" This was the kind of day I had which usually ended with the sun moving down and hiding from us. It had been always the same. My schedule was really very simple; eat, workout and sleep. Outing wasn't the part of my life, and then my mom asked me to get some ingredients for dinner and I headed out for the purpose.

I never knew that shopping for my home would bring such a surprise to my life. It was afternoon, around 2:30 PM when I was buying some spices at the nearest store. As I turned left to that section, my head banged against something. When I was back to my conscious, I realized that she was a girl, a girl of maybe, my age. I shouted loud in my heart, "SHE IS DAMN PRETTY!" though the sound wasn't audible to anyone else out there.

Then I heard a sweet, polite voice which said,"Sorry." That was when she stole my heart completely. I don't know whether it was love or what, but a stream of magic ran through my body. I was completely stiff. Maybe because of her beauty. She had pretty, childish, black eyes with extremely cute cheeks, all completed with those tremendously gorgeous lips. But the question arose in my mind and heart;"WHO IS SHE?"

How do I handle it?

The loneliness was scratching my wounds each and every day. I was still alone. It had been 5840+ days from when I had landed on Earth. It was my birthday, I guess the sixteenth one. But unlike others, I wasn't excited about it at all, simply because I had no one to call to my place. Friend was just a dream in my life. I might seem to be desperate for friends. Just keep yourself out from the reach of any friend for just two days; how would you feel?

The pain I was suffering from felt too low. Some days even I used to think; "Am I over-reacting?" Maybe, or maybe not. Who knows? So, where was I? Yeah, I was on my birthday and some things like this. I guess celebrating a year less from life isn't a reason to party! Eventually, you are losing out an entire year of your life. This was my excuse for not partying at my birthdays. I was rather dragged to temples. I never believed on god, not because I was a skeptic, it was just my anger towards life that I used to blame god for evey trouble in my life.

"I wasn't alone," I used to tell myself. "With me is my family." That useless speeches to myself was of no use now. I was big enough to fool myself anymore. A cousin of mine was my only friend. Not that he was always with me, but was always there for me. My chats just included some of his talks. However, my chats were soon going to be filled with plenty of stuff after the girl I was about the meet!

My Life...

My life always rotated around a cycle which included my home, my school and then again my home. I didn't had any friends, not because I was not friendly, but because I was shy to make some. This was the only reason that I was always left alone in the crowd. Among hundreds of people, I was the one person, and maybe was the only one, who was still alone!

I was a grown up teenager. Sixteen isn't the age of a child. Still I was always away from making friends. Maybe because I had nothing to talk about with them. Maybe I was not that confident. This cycle of maybe was the whole problem in my boring life. I wasn't a fit, sporty person, but rather preferred to relax while other humans of my age played. Team Spirit was a complete mystery to me. This missing element of life was another reason behind my loneliness.

I was fed up with my life that I managed to drag alongside me. I wasn't living my live, it was just that I managed to somehow existed in this globe. I don't even remember if someone cared my presence in the world or not except my parents. Parents always care for their children. That wasn't too amazing to be happy about. Some huge element of life was missing from my life which was 'Friends." My search for friends continued. I wanted friends who could understand me, friends who laughed with me and not at me. This search that had to go a long way from now...

What is it all about?

DISCLAIMER

This blog would include things picked up from my real life. The things that I have experienced and want to share. It is purely a great piece of non-fiction and is dedicated to my life. Imagining and writing isn't a great task. Writing your whole life is a true job which I am going to do.

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